Saturday, April 28, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Monday, April 16, 2012
Disasters..... Some i hate, some
Disasters..... Some i hate, some i love. The best disaster of a dream, her! Her smile. If only i could see it once more!
Friday, April 13, 2012
Why are people so stupid.
Why are people so stupid. One of the biggest disasters, bullys! Grow up and love everyone!
I never seem to say
I never seem to say or do the right thing for her. She hates me! This is a disaster. Help!
Disasters.......... At every corner. Always
Disasters.......... At every corner. Always right there to smack me in the face. Sorry never seems to work. Blah!
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Friday, April 6, 2012
D... Drugs I... Insecure S...
D... Drugs
I... Insecure
S... Stupid
A... Ashamed
S... Self-Destruct
T... Tragedy
E... Ego
R... Reckless
I... Insecure
S... Stupid
A... Ashamed
S... Self-Destruct
T... Tragedy
E... Ego
R... Reckless
Disaster / Accident, Calamity, Crash,
Disaster / Accident, Calamity, Crash, Debacle, Flop, Mess-Up, Mishap, Tragedy, Wash-Out.
Disaster #12, Everyday something reminds
Disaster #12, Everyday something reminds me that i am just like my father. I need help!
Disaster #10, Still sitting on
Disaster #10, Still sitting on my ass, doing the same things i was doing 10 years ago. Blah blah blah. Get your ass up!
Disaster #9, Got a key
Disaster #9, Got a key made and gave it to her! Stupid! (2011) But i got it back...
Disaster #8, The first text
Disaster #8, The first text i sent to a girl in class during a video! (2011)
Disaster #7, Moved father from
Disaster #7, Moved father from Texas into my home. Lasted 2 weeks. (2010) Never again!
Disaster #3, Beat-up social studies
Disaster #3, Beat-up social studies teacher in 7th grade. Sent to alternative school, start of my downhill trip!
Thursday, April 5, 2012
Today... 50/50 of disaster! Was
Today... 50/50 of disaster! Was a great day, but only thing i wanted i never got. Opened my eyes to what i needed to see.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
So who shall i be
So who shall i be from now on? Calm, quiet and dedicated to money. Yeah i think i can stay out of peoples lives this way.
I tell the truth, i
I tell the truth, i say whats on my mind and people never understand what i mean. So i am done with me once again........
I cant be me anymore!
I cant be me anymore! people wounder why i ack diff with certin people, cuz most people cant handle the real me.
Lost and gone forever!
You should have seen her! Amazing! Walking through the house, passed someone i didn't know. But i have been in this house before so its not uncharted territory; so why do i feel out of place. I reach the kitchen and i am bombarded with the smell of some really great food. Then i see a familiar face greeting me with a smile and hug. Ah now it feels like home. Before i could even say hi, out the corner of my eye i saw her. Standing in the backyard talking to family and friends. I hadn't seen her look so beautiful, or was it just the light hitting her. She still hasn't seen me yet. Standing in the kitchen still watching her from the window, watching her move from person to person talking and smiling. The cutest thing i ever layed my eyes on. Deep breath and here i go, screen door opens and i take my first step down the steps to the backyard. Does she see me? Sweating and nervous, I stumble up to her. Hey there! Really is that all i could think to say. Yup! But believe it or not it worked, she threw her arms around me and my nerves went away. I could tell that she was waiting for me. Never have i ever felt that feeling again...... Little did i know it was going to be the last time i felt that.
Happy..... nope!
Oh the disasters of my life, where to start? Would love to meet someone that doesn't have disasters. One question i would ask them, do you regret never taking chances? See, I may hate or should I say dislike my life, but that doesn't mean i would take it all back. Everything we do does make us who we are. So the one question i would ask myself is, did you enjoy it all? that right there is a good question. i think i would say yes i enjoyed everything, but i would be lying. too many downs in my life, that i caused. I thought that all i needed to do was keep myself happy. but i went by it all wrong. yes you need to be happy but there are many different types of happy. i have been living a false and fake happy. thinking that life is great. open your eyes Christopher! for you are an ass, a bad friend, and a crappy lover. you make yourself happy with other peoples downs. wake up and fix yourself. but how. all alone and that's probably the way it should be for a longtime. Happy! how do i get to that point. OK i am going to stop for now i have no clue what i am trying to do here.
Life is funny.
Life sure is a funny thing. Seems like whenever we think we've got it all figured out, another curve ball comes right at us. I used to view the world much differently than I do now. Sometimes it really amazes me how our experiences can shape who we become. I hate to play the "what if" game because I truly am thankful for everything that has happened in my life, especially the bad. That may sound crazy to some people, but it's the truth. Now if you had told me a few years ago that I would be saying these things I may not have believed it myself. Yes, sometimes it is fun to think "what if" and imagine the type of life we may lead had some things gone differently in the past, but that's where it should stay: in the past. I don't mind the occasional flashback in conversation to a time when life was simpler, but truth be told I love the way things have turned out. Even if others do not agree. I fully believe that everything happens for a reason and that God has my back no matter what. The choices we make dictate the path we follow. It took me a long time to realize and accept that bad things do happen for a reason and once we choose to accept them and learn from it we can start to move on and lead a more educated life. Forgive me if I am rambling but my fingers seem to be flying over the keys tonight. Sometimes there are a few key events that feel like they either make or break us, but in reality this is not the case. It is how we choose to deal with these situations that effect the outcome, in the grand scheme of things.
Sometimes we need to set aside some time to really sit down and think about all the things we have to be thankful for. I know it can be hard at times, but let's face it - there are so many others out there in much worse situations. People lose sight of what is really important in life and forget to stop and smell the roses, so to speak. That's not going to be me anymore. I will smell every rose if I have to! Even when you stop to smell the roses, sometimes you get a little prick... but eventually the wounds will heal and the roses will smell sweet again.
Sometimes we need to set aside some time to really sit down and think about all the things we have to be thankful for. I know it can be hard at times, but let's face it - there are so many others out there in much worse situations. People lose sight of what is really important in life and forget to stop and smell the roses, so to speak. That's not going to be me anymore. I will smell every rose if I have to! Even when you stop to smell the roses, sometimes you get a little prick... but eventually the wounds will heal and the roses will smell sweet again.
It's a start.
Hi. This isn't actually my blog but I am helping a friend set it up and he asked me to write a little something. I've known Chris since I was 11 years old. That seems like forever ago to me right now. He used to hang out at my place ALL THE TIME and those were the days, let me tell you! We had a lot of fun back then, my mom always said he was her adopted son. Then LIFE happened and we moved... but hey things all work out eventually. Anywho... This will be a good place to get thoughts out and just share what's going on in that head of yours :-P hope you like how I set it up for you! (If not, I won't be offended please let me know and we can change it!)
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